Hard Times: What life is like for the average person

It's been a long wait but I'm back. Alot of thugs have happened since my last blog. I temporally finished college with hopes of maybe taking up some kind of  skill  and using it to help pay my loans and tuition fees.
After college there was limited work at my, then current job, so I decided to take a emergency medical specialist class. Yes I am currently a certified EMT, but getting a job in this field proved more challenging than I expected. So here I am in November wondering, should I use my criminal justice degree or my certification as an EMT?
As a mother of two a also have to worry about my children, which are more important than dreams of what I aspire to be. I have to worry about what I am. Cooking cleaning homework and studying help is all mine. So why is it that I'm so bummed out about where I should be, rather than just be proud of how far I've come in life?
In life society seems to set unrealistic goals for the "haves and have nots". Which only a hand full of have nots and of course the haves succeed. Being female, not only pushes you to wanna be the best at everything, but if your a have not your only hope is to succeed, to give your children, or future children the luxury you didn't have.
I'm not one to solely Blame society,  but also myself. It is not the fault of the have nots to not have the opportunity (money) to buy connections to become middle class or become apart of the one percent. It is the fault of the one percent that the have nots no longer have a place in government, since the one percent makes it more impossible every year for the have nots to finally have.